i.am.who.i.am,accept.that!

BORED!!!sick and stupid!!lame!!arrrgghhee!!!!!hate life!!hmm..spose to be doin my workflow..or wat handflow..but cant seem to think porperly.poor shermie is sick..wonder how..hmm..

well i jz realised that my life has been completely turned over.its so different now.so many new things i’ve learnt..hope i’ll put them in good use.well,me in a whole new world now.that’s good right?i hope so..really..im bored.feel like sneaking out.how ar?hmm..no..better be good girl and stay home.

today is mon.30th May..went to jpj place to take test but got postponed to nx week.shitten.woke up 600 am  jz to get there..shit.then,at nyt got piano lesson..den got on9 meeting wif programmers..STRESSED day..SUPER STRESSED!!haiz..

yesterday pulak,woke up went temple for meeting.den go makan kfc.went fishing wif feng afta dat.I CAUGHT 1!!wif the rod..hehe..so proud.but i feel mean..cz afta i caught it,went 2 d fishing shop,,feed a HUGE fish wif d 1 i caught..me..a murderer*gasp*..well spose go play paintball today..but suddenly cancelled.if go playpaintbal,nonit to catch fish lorr..wat la..

on sat,,hmm went watch star wars wif dad and suezan.crazy..i went shopping as well..wah..feel so good.hehe..bought lotsa stuff..bag,keychaih,skirt,dictionary..dats bout it.erm..ya dats bout it.

fri..got meeting in temple.say start at 8,went there not a single hair to be seen.finally jamie came around 9..lijun at 9++.haih..malaysian timing..so out.meet till around 11+++..hungry.hadn’t had dinner yet.so went to tanjung’s afta droppin lijun,and jamie home.went wif feng,and lum.went home..oh its teachers day today.hmm..sucky i didn’t get to watch the performance.

ahh…lazy to type liao..gonna sleep now.ciao dudes..muaks

my heart is bloody,

filled with scars,

that will never ever heal.

gushes and cuts where my blood spill,

and in pain i will be killed.

can u feel my pain,

that cuts thru every vein?

can you feel my sorrow,

watch as i die in horror.

i am barely alive,

i need you by my side,

come as i close my eyes,

and fall into slumber by your side.

wookies…lets see ;

1st MAY 2005 = Labour Day

woke up at 0900 to prepare 4 TDC meeting.hmm it starts at 0930 but as usual,i’m late,cz dad’s late.anyways,i reached SJBA(Subang Jaya Buddhist Association) at 0945..not so bad.i’m not the latest..hehe..meeting offically starts at 1000.LONG meeting…till bout 1300+++ den went to SP(Sunway Piramid) wif Feng.Visited SUEZAN!!!the biatch..so damn pretty liao.hmm..lost loadsa weight.damn..i feel fat =p …i am a slob anyway.ate in a&w’s.went home afta dat.ahaha…i bumped in2 my ol tuition fwen,Chuah.

I can hv fun.I know how to have fun.Why would i still need him?hahahaha…..

2nd MAY 2005.

YaY!!Went S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!!befor that,went to Damansara Jaya where sis(Pris) had her piano lessons.In that 1 hr,i walked around atria alone.hmm..bein alone smtimes is quite nice.bought a story book..afta my name..hehe…oh ya,den i bumped into Chet..had a drink(he insisted)and chat up a bit.aiyo..wonder wat im gonna tell JacQ?hmm..went to 1u..walk around the mall,almost got killed(i was standin unda d shutter wen its comin down..)luckily a bald man saved me..?heheh..was blur la…thinkin back those old times..brought a bad day.Finally bought smtin.wanted 2 buy shoes but nothin suits me.went home,couldn’t sleep dis nyt.haiz..

3rd MAY 2005.

back to work again!it would hv been 11th month if we’re still 2getha.but we’re not.so 4get it.im movin on..i will not get stuck here.hmm..i was chattin wif a guy..he’s the sweetest guy ever.but i don’t know if i can trust him..cz all guys are the same?haiz..i dunno la.im not ready to love again cz my heart is still attached to him..aiks..dun care.maybe i shud give him a chance?what should i do?

4th MAY 2005.

ahhh…a new day.sweetie was sick.so i woke up and made him mushroom soup while yawnin all the way..at least he liked it.hehe..hope he’ll feel beta.i tink he does need some1 to care for him.why not me?im jz afraid il get hurt again,and il feel really stupid.well im gonna gv him my trust..bit by bit.went to school 2day to get my f6 letter.there’s a stupidd boy in a  class went "MELISSA!! I LOVE YOU!!"crazy!im bored…lalalalala….

5th MAY 2005.

hrrmp..my dear is on leave..not workin wo..so lucky?hehe but he came to office,we went to a restaurant called ‘3monkeys’ i wonder y..its italian.the chicken lasagne is delicious.gosh…expensive food IS really nice.im afraid il get addicted living like him..ahaha..thx sweetheart,comin all the way from home.jz to be with me.muaks..

6th MAY 2005.

YAY!! its FRIDAY!woohoo..went to tmn sea school.but kenot register yet.nvm..nee and aina ffk me..*sobs*..erm…so-so day..nothing much to say.