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Archive for July, 2005
09
Jul
new bloggy
07
Jul
***plans,plans,plans***
hulamak!!i got so much to tell you ar bloggy..tell u ar i feel lyk kicking christina for ffking me.dunno wat happen to her duwana ans my fon calls punyer..make me stand outside kasturi lyk dumbdumb.luckily darling zan is willing to fly to my rescue!love you ZAN!!MUAKS!!erm..oh but on tues went to atria wif christ and funky.nice leh the name..cool guy..kena bully by us..but he’s quite nice to tolerate our wild behavior.huanhuanhuan….
i can’t sleep..thinkin bout my plans for the week.T.G.I.F!!!so happy..ok, tmr will go to schoo(as usual*yawn*),aftanoon go to pasar seni..go bk 2 schoo cz got hs practice.erm,den go and find a tailor for my prefect skirt.the old one is pretty creamy in colour..erweks.. xp ..and try to sneek out again at night.
hmm on sat,blood donation in schoo..erm,dun tink can go rock climbing ad afta dat.sure no energy liao..nite,go for a partay!!but its a sad party..haih..another friend is leaving again!! =<
sun,go for TQ..meet tjivi there.been ages since i last saw him.shopping in ou afta dat wif family..erm..spose i should do homework afta dat.for now..i gotta go sleep.stop typing!!hmm..i wanna get this off my chest."*** i HATE you but i LOVE you.im MISSING you but i DON’T want to.."
hah..feels so good.shhhh..dun tell him cz i doubt he’ll read this so its quite safe.its 2:48 am and im still wide awake.i wonder which planet i came from..comments anyone?
01
Jul
=night crawler=
WALAU EH!!! i can’t believe i did that.. i drove my dad’s car to ss3 wif suezan,at 2 am in d mornin.hahaha..was so fun.so exciting.it was the 1st time i drove out MYSELF.without my parents sitting next to me..making me feel nervous.and guess what?i’m not a bad driver.
i realise i need my fwens around me to make me stop thinking bout things.with them around,my mind won’t wander off so easily..anyway i did have fun..OH BTW,got 2 CRAZY,INSANE human(not sure if u can call them that) walked from ss14,SUBANG to SS3,PJ..walk ok..no shit.took bout 2 hrs..luckily i arrived in time when they were trying to figure a way to get home.Im their lucky star..but they had to bear wif my nonskilled reverse techniques..haha.but we managed to survive..
well,,i wished sometimes i still have that someone special to share my days and fun with me.but it wont happen and never will..things are so complicated.i don’t want it to be that way but shit happens..and maybe that’s the way it is.
01
Jul
.:mirrored images:.
What’s a girl to do? When there is nothing left inside of her? All her joy and happiness,washed away with the tears. Sometimes is hard to make believe that everything’s all right and going to be fine. Cz sometimes it won’t. No matter how many times you tell yourself that everything will soon turn right again,it didn’t. How long must i wait?
To lose someone you love is a wound. To watch the person you love, loving another is adding salt to the wound. To know that you’ve been betrayed by the person you love and trust is a wound that will never heal. The pain will always be there,unbearable..unless amputated. And when it is, all that is left is the scar..even time cannot heal the torture that i’ve went through.
Arrrgghhh..how i wish i could scream now. Release the agony all tangled up in me..please somebody help me erase this part of my memory. The one causing me to lose sleep at night, cause me the feeling of guilt,anger,jealousy,remorse..i cant go on. I have to snap myself back to reality. Here i am,typing on my dad’s laptop. 1.36 am on sat, im spose to be asleep cz im sick. skipped school today cz of that..
what’s a girl to do? i know…put a smile on her face, tell herself "everything’s gonna be allright" and go to bed. Wake up, smile to the whole world again. Not to show her family the pain she’s feeling inside,with every step she make. That’s what im doing. That’s how i feel.
Luckily in this world of ups and downs i still have friends whom i love so much and it really does makes me smile to think of them without effort.Thx to these special ppl who will always have a place in my broken heart. Always here for me,listenin to me crap.. Sorry guys.. You guys are like my UHU glue..trying to stick the pieces back together..haha..love you guys..MUAKS..
